Thursday, August 01, 2013

War In My Bathroom: A Short Story

War In My Bathroom
by
Matthew Turner

January 5th

Okay. This is it. This journal will be the closest I get to human interaction until The Great British Novel is a physical reality, something I can hold in my hands, instead of just an idea in my head. I have worked my arse off for two years saving up in preparation for this moment and now it is finally here. All beautifully thought out in advance and carried through to the letter: I have taken this low-rent flat in Croydon, the most boring town I could think of - the rent is paid in advance, for a year; I have systematically cut myself off from family and friends, all of whom are convinced it is "just a phase" I'm going through and that I'll be back in time for Christmas, which, if all goes well, I will be; I have contracted the woman in the flat across the road to do my weekly shopping for me - this has been expensive (she too has been paid in advance), but will, I'm convinced, be worth it; my bills, such as they are (no phone, no TV, and only the lights and the kitchen appliances requiring electricity) are all on direct debit, and my account has enough left in it to more than cover them. In short, it cannot fail - I am convinced Complete Isolation is the key - every single other time I've sat down to do this, someone or something has always come along to get in the way. Well, not this time. It starts, here and now.


January 15th

I am overjoyed with my progress so far - ten days in and already on page one hundred and ten. It's still a first draft, obviously, but just to have them there next to my typewriter fills me with a sense of enormous well-being. I have to confess, though, that my momentum is waning somewhat - from an average of ten-to-fifteen pages a day for the first few days, I am now down to two. So I'm taking a short break to recharge.
Momentum problems aside, I have settled nicely into my routine. It is as follows:
8:30 a.m. - Wake up; a shit, a shower and a shave (the old triple-s routine); cup of tea; breakfast - corn flakes.
9:00 a.m. - Write straight through till eleven.
11:00 a.m. - Collect shopping from outside door, leave rubbish (Saturdays only); coffee break.
11:30 a.m. - Write through till lunch-time, or until Hunger strikes, if I'm on a roll.
1:30 p.m. (approx.) - Lunch, usually sandwiches and so on, fruit etc.
2:00 p.m. - Write through till 5:30; take a break if needed, on till dinner if not.
5:30 p.m. - Break (optional) - see below.
7:30 p.m. - Dinner, something hot, and lots of it - if there's one thing I learned while at university, it's how to eat cheap, fast and adequately on combinations of either potatoes, pasta or rice with either meat, fish and/ or vegetables.
8:30 p.m. - Write through till 12:30, or until Tiredness strikes, as with Hunger, above.
12:30 a.m. (approx.) - Bed.

As previously mentioned, I have no television. This is because the damn thing Rots Your Mind. Or at least, it saps your spirit. You could watch TV for your whole life and probably have an okay time doing it, which is what really worries me, but you would have absolutely nothing to show for it at the end of it all. No. No TV. I rejected newspapers and magazines too, because I don't want to be distracted by reading a review of some film I might want to see, ditto programme on TV, but worst of all, the unthinkable, that someone publishes The Great British Novel before I do - if they do, I don't want to know about it.. So, as far as feasible break-type activities go, I am down to two: staring out the window and reading. Well, of course, there is the Other Activity, namely the Sin of Onan, but that goes without saying. The view from my window was in fact carefully chosen as being utterly dull beyond belief, indeed, it was the clincher in taking the flat in the first place - it looks onto a flat roof-top in an extremely ordinary housing-estate. As far as I can tell, there is no access to said roof-top, so there is every possibility that I shan't see a single person the entire time I am here. So, staring out the window basically involves either thinking/ day-dreaming or Mental Preparation for Activity #3, which is practically the same as writing, at least as far as mental stimulation is concerned. As for reading, I have a huge pile of books hidden away in a cupboard; they vary in age, genre, author and length. I look upon them as mental aides - I am convinced that the more you read, the better a writer you are. I have yet to start any of them.


January 16th

Started reading Dashiell Hammett's The Maltese Falcon (something I'd never been able to get round to before). Got a brilliant idea half-way through and ended up writing through till three a.m. I knew those books were a brilliant idea.


January 17th

Finished The Maltese Falcon. Half a page written. Still, I suppose that balances out yesterday.


February 2nd

I am disgusted with myself. In just over two weeks I have read straight through Vladimir Nabakov's Lolita, Raymond Chandler's Farewell, My Lovely, Charles Dickens' Oliver Twist, Thomas Hardy's Jude the Obscure, Dostoyevsky's Crime and Punishment and Roddy Doyle's The Van. Pages written since last journal entry: three. It's pathetic. And what is worse - I can hear a voice in my head saying "If you finish those books you'll have all that time to write in". I refuse to listen.


February 3rd

Back on schedule. Ten whole pages written today. Found a spider in the bath this morning. Killed it. Feel somehow as if my privacy has been invaded, my web of isolation penetrated.


February 4th

This writing business - it looks like a piece of piss, but it really isn't. It is now nine p.m. and I have only written the following sentence: Nobody ever says "A month of Tuesdays". Great British Novel, my arse. I'm off for a Sherman.
A nasty shock. Had to abort said Sherman due to the sudden appearance of another spider. (I am not, it has to be said, particularly fond of spiders - I know they're harmless and they serve their purpose and so on, but they give me the creeps, and there it is). Anyway, this spider was absolutely identical to the one I killed yesterday and, as I was standing over the toilet, 'preparing', shall we say, the little fucker dropped right down in front of my face and stayed there. If I didn't know better I'd swear it was staring me down. So, anyway, I jumped back out of fright, and the thing descended to the toilet bowl, which just happens to be where I disposed of its comrade yesterday. At that point I got up the nerve to kill it, but the bastard was too quick for me - I chased it round the bathroom, but it escaped through a sideboard. Bollocks. I hate it when I know there's a spider in the bathroom and I can't see it. I think I'll forego the personal hygiene tomorrow.


February 5th

The spider hadn't returned this morning. Managed a dump, but I'm not showering till I've killed the fucker.
Started the same line fifteen times. Junked it in the end.

February 6th

It's amazing what you can see if you stare at a chocolate chip cookie long enough.


February 7th

Read William Faulkner's As I Lay Dying from cover to cover. God knows why - it was boring as hell. No inspiration forthcoming, either.
Result! Just got back from the bathroom - the spider was back and is no more. Feel a lot better.
It is now midnight. I ended up showering and then writing a whole page. Feel terrific!


February 8th

Ants! I've got ants in the bathroom! I'd seen one or two in the kitchen, but there were at least ten in the bath this morning! Isn't February the wrong time of year for ants? Or am I thinking of something else? When I got back with a kettle full of boiling water they'd all disappeared. I don't hate ants as much as I hate spiders (they're smaller, less creepy-looking and easier to kill), but I still don't want them in my bathroom.
Made a bold attempt at something new today, and started writing a chapter out of chronological order. I feel sure William Burroughs (whose The Naked Lunch I read this morning) would approve.
I'm halfway through the chapter. Knew those books were a good idea.
Just got back from the bathroom - there were ants in the bathroom again! Nine of them this time. I didn't waste time boiling the kettle, I just washed them down the plug-hole with water in the glass I keep my toothbrush in. Nine down, one to go.


February 9th

I am now officially on page 150, not counting the thirty pages of Chapter X that will be slotted in later on. I am dead pleased.
Killed an ant in the bathroom. Mission accomplished.


February 10th

The spiders are back! I found two of the bastards there this morning! Christ, there's probably a nest - I'll be killing the beasts all spring...Got one, the other one got away. So. No more showers for a bit, then.
It is now just gone midnight. I am extremely pissed off with myself. I couldn't get a word written all morning, so I "just closed my eyes for a few minutes" (as my Dad used to say), after lunch, and slept right through till midnight! Ten whole hours! I feel like such a waster. Perhaps I'll be able to write through the night...
Perhaps not.
I feel sick. I just found an ant on my toothbrush. (It is 3:07 a.m.). Okay, so it may be better than half an ant, as the old school-playground joke used to go (sort of), but I really do not feel well. Boiled the toothbrush for several minutes in the kettle. The funny thing was that it wasn't really doing anything, it was just there. I could understand if I'd caught it making off with a bit of corn-flake or something, but it wasn't even moving. Strange.


February 13th

Had an intensely vivid and erotic dream last night, about a male (!) acquaintance from when I was at school. What the hell does that mean? I can't even remember the guy's name. I hate that - when people you can barely remember, let alone think about, just pop into your dreams uninvited and then proceed to totally fuck up your entire day. Bugger. (I once had a dream that involved both Brigitte Bardot and Pamela Anderson, brought on, I suspect, by the particularly comfy sofa I was spending the night on. Now that was a dream).
No spiders or ants today. Still haven't showered.
It is five-fifteen. I haven't been able to concentrate on the novel because of that damn dream. What the hell was that guy's name?
Nine-thirty-six. Nada.
Vaughn. Vaughn something. Or was it Alex? Hell.


February 14th

Bloody Hell - it's Valentines Day! God, that's sad. It has to be said that the Sin of Onan, though terrific in its own right, is no substitute for the real thing. I'm beginning to wonder if Croydon has the same "phone-box services" that Brighton does...
Have just written half a page.
Fuck! I don't believe this, I really do NOT believe this. In addition to spiders and ants, I now have wood-lice in my bathroom. What next? Centipedes? Jesus. Luckily they (there were two of them) rolled into a ball the moment I got near them, so I just flicked them down the plug-hole. Wood-lice have to be the stupidest insects going, if you ask me. I mean, that ball malarkey is alright if you're a hedgehog, but...well, you get the idea.


February 15th

I am beginning to smell, quite markedly. My history teacher once had a theory that you could only get just so dirty and smelly, so that after a point you reached saturation, as it were, and even began to get quite respectable again. A friend of mine tested a similar theory on his hair, with remarkably good results - he said it was really worth six months of unwashed manky hair, and looking at his hair, you had to agree with him. Anyway, if I don't find and kill that spider soon, I'll be in a position to prove or disprove my history teacher's theory once and for all.
No insects at all today. At least, not visible.


February 16th

Have just read Nathaneal West's The Day of the Locust. The guy was a bloody genius. Pity about that unfortunate insect reference though.
Five p.m. Inspired by the god-like prose of Mr. West, I am pleased to report that I got three whole pages written today.
No insects again today. Still lacking the cojones to brave a shower, however.


February 17th

Ants! "Faasands of 'em!", as Michael Caine would have no doubt said, a) had this been the film Zulu, and b) had they been Zulus, and not ants. And, come to think of it, c), had there indeed been thousands of them, instead of around twenty. But, hey, stick twenty ants in your bathtub and see how you like it. This time I boiled the water and let them have it - I put the plug in so they couldn't get away while I boiled the kettle. Where the hell did they come from though?
You know your personal hygiene is Somewhat Amiss when you start to find that even you think you smell bad. "Smelling" is one thing, but smelling bad, I mean really bad, is quite another...I'm almost starting to hope the spider comes back.
Got nothing read or written today. My mind just isn't on it, somehow.


February 18th

Another erotic dream - a woman, this time, and not someone I knew. A dream that was, shall we say, 'taken to it's logical conclusion'...I am really starting to miss human contact. At least the memories of the dream should be good for a couple of Barclays.
The bathroom seems quiet. I might risk it.
Bastards! Five minutes! Just five minutes! Checked the bathroom, all clear. Came into room, got undressed, back to bathroom and there's three fucking spiders waiting - one in the bath, one near the toothbrush glass and another one up above the toilet. Too scared to kill any of them, and besides, I feel vulnerable when I'm naked.
I need a lie-down.


February 19th

The experience with the spiders shook me up more than I thought. I brushed my teeth in the kitchen last night, and, though I'm embarrassed to admit it, this morning I took a slash out the window...(Felt good, actually). I have also taken to keeping my toothbrush next to my typewriter.
Wrote another page today, but I'm not happy with it.
I think I'll avoid the bathroom for a while. Have suddenly realised I can wash in the kitchen sink. Though there is a part of me that really does want to test out that theory. And besides, the last time I saw my soap it was in the far corner of the bath.


February 20th

Nothing read, nothing written. Avoided the bathroom. Smell like hell.


February 21st

Found a couple of ants in the kitchen this morning, over by where the kettle plugs in. Killed them both.
Started to read Alice In Wonderland, but gave up after an hour. The idea of animals speaking just doesn't appeal to me right now. Especially caterpillars.
Wrote two lines, but tore them both up.


February 22nd

Woke up at two a.m. needing a glass of water and thought I saw a long trail of chocolate chip cookie crumbs leading out of the kitchen. Must have been half-asleep though, because this morning they've gone.
My curiosity is getting the better of me. I'm going into the bathroom. It is five past ten a.m.
Ten-fifteen a.m. The strangest thing. No living insects at all in the bathroom, but I found five dead ants in the bath, and the rolled-up shell of a wood-louse. The wood-louse seemed to have been eaten out from inside his shell - like you would eat the sausage from a sausage-roll, without damaging the roll. Knew those shells were no protection.

February 23rd

Things are hotting up. I went into the bathroom this morning and saw three spiders and another thirty or so ants, all grouped together at opposite ends of the bath. The spiders had the non-plug-hole end. A smart move. I admit, I was shocked and scared at first, but it's fascinating stuff. Battle-lines do most definitely appear to have been drawn, and what I found yesterday would appear to have been the first casualties. I wonder, though, where the wood-lice fit in?
Couldn't concentrate on the novel. At five o'clock I checked the bathroom again, and another two spiders had joined the others. The ants didn't appear to have moved. I boiled the water, ready to burn the lot of them, but somehow I couldn't. I have to admit, I'm curious to see how it develops. War in my bathroom. How exciting!


February 24th

The novel is on the back-burner - I can't concentrate, knowing there's a war on. Forces are still massing, apparently - last count was seven spiders and around seventy ants. It's odd that they never seem to move. I'm going to check them again.


February 28th

I have spent the last three days observing the war. I have hardly slept a wink, and when I did, I was awoken by the most horrific nightmares - ants swarming down my throat, spiders enveloping me in their webs, that sort of thing. So I decided to stay awake and watch the war develop, in order to ultimately side with the apparent losers and that way take out the winners and ensure maximum wipe-out. This I did, and the war proceeded as follows:
After an eternity of waiting, the mass of ants (now up to around two-hundred, at a rough guess, and forming a solid black patch on the bath surface), suddenly parted to reveal nine or ten balled-up wood-lice. At a pre-arranged signal (don't ask me what) they suddenly rolled all the wood-lice towards the twenty or so spiders amassed at the other end. This took the spiders by surprise, although they had lined their end of the bath with what I can only describe as 'web-mines', or rather, lines of undetectable web that would prevent any full-frontal attack by stopping the assailants in their tracks. This is what happened to the wood-lice - the whole lot of them stuck fast in the traps. The spiders had clearly been expecting a much fiercer attack than this and when they saw how easily the lice fell into their traps, they pounced, as one.
It was fascinating to watch. The spiders took a wood-louse between them - one would prize it open for the other to eat out its insides (still alive, still squirming), then they would swap, and the other would finish it off. When they'd finished, the louse snapped back into the ball-shape. So that's how they did it. Except that only one pair of spiders actually finished, because the ants chose that moment to strike. They swarmed over the lice - thereby avoiding the web-mines - and onto the spiders themselves. The spiders, obviously starving and caught up in their louse-feast, didn't know what hit them. The ants' strategy quickly became apparent - in seconds they had bitten the legs off each of their intended victims, and then they slowly carried their trophies (the spiders' helpless, raisin-like bodies) back to the waiting throng, where they were quickly devoured by the masses. I only saw two spiders escape - the two that finished first - and they shot upwards on web-lines and disappeared into cracks in the ceiling. A clear victory, then, for the ants. However, having seen them dispose of the spiders so ruthlessly, I was loath to carry out my original plan. Besides, I hate spiders more than I hate ants. So I waited.
The second day, the ants appeared confident in their victory. They carefully removed all remaining web-traces from the bath and eventually occupied the entire surface area. Needless to say, this is a pretty revolting sight, but by this time my tiredness and my curiosity had removed my sense of disgust, though I'm in no hurry to take a shower still, obviously. In the late afternoon I spotted biscuit crumbs in the bath, and it dawned on me that the ants had staged a siege, starving the spiders whilst sure of their own supplies. Perhaps the spiders had assumed it was merely a battle of wits, and they were starving each other out? Well, they had paid the price. As I watched, the remaining crumbs were distributed evenly among the hordes. Clearly some kind of celebration was in swing. They certainly paid no attention to me, and at one point I even braved a dump. In doing so, however, I happened to look up and catch glimpses of the surviving spiders, rushing to and fro above my head. I hate seeing the buggers move. I took up my position at the door again.
The 'celebration' lasted all day and most of the night. So, on the morning of the third day, the ants were totally unprepared for the spiders' last-ditch final attack. At dawn, I looked at the ceiling and spotted the spiders (four of them now - I suppose the others had been in the ceiling all along) positioned in the four corners of the room. Then, suddenly, they each made a short, sharp movement, and a thin, solid layer of web descended from the ceiling and settled over the surface of the bathroom. (Mighty glad I wasn't on the bog, I can tell you). Looking into the bath, I could see the entire ant-force immobilised under the 'blanket' - there was a lot of panicky thrashing about, but nothing was going anywhere. Then, six more spiders appeared from between the cracks in the ceiling and the ten of them descended, like commandos on their web-lines. Taking an edge of the 'blanket' each, they worked their way around it, eating from the outside in, and pouncing on anything that managed to get free as they did so.
It was almost as if they were cleaning the bath for me. Gradually, the white of the bath began to emerge from the black mass that had covered it, until there was just a large circular black patch in the centre, much as there had been a few days ago. The spiders were moving more slowly now and one or two ants did manage to get free, evading the jaws of their attackers, and scarpering up the spiders' own web-lines. Then, minutes later, I saw something amazing - the recently escaped ants (I counted three) were moving one of the web-lines that hung down from the ceiling, so that it hung over the centre of the still-diminishing black patch. Once in position, two of the ants zipped down the line and went to work on the centre of the web-patch. As a hole opened up, twenty or so ants pelted back up the line, just as the spiders finally reached the centre. The spiders darted back towards their lines, but the ants had pulled them up, leaving them stranded. I decided that it was now or never. I dived into the living-room and grabbed my manuscript. Then, for some reason, I said, aloud:
"I can live with ants. Just stay off the surfaces. This is for you."
And I walloped each and every one of the spiders (not a pretty sight, as each one had consumed at least its own weight in ants), scooped them all up with toilet paper and flushed the remains down the toilet. Felt exhilarated.
When I looked up again, the ants had disappeared. The war is over. The ants, I suppose, win by default, but I think we all know who the real winner is. I might even take a shower later. But now for the living-room and a crack at that novel!


March 5th

I'm really back on track now. Up to page 195. It's going really well. Best of all, I haven't seen a single insect since the war. I must admit, it is nice to be able to shower again.


March 7th

Whilst picking up the weeks' shopping from outside the door, I noticed some ants running around the door-frame. So that's where they got to - I'd been wondering.
It's five p.m. I've just noticed some more ants on the window-frame. (Alright, I admit it - I was staring out the window.) I wonder if...?
Yes. Just checked. They were running along by the bathroom window too. Staying well away from the surfaces though. Strange though - it is almost as if they are guarding the flat. Still, if it keeps the spiders out, I can't say I mind.


March 9th

A very, very strange thing has just happened. I'm writing this to prove that it couldn't be a dream. But what if I'm hallucinating? What if all this time alone has driven me insane? I remember reading that the horrible thing about insanity is that all the madness and the delusions are just as real as the "real". So that if you think that your favourite armchair is planning to kill you while you sleep, you also remember that at half-past two, you've got a dentist appointment. I'm talking bollocks. Best to just put it down on paper and see how it looks. Here goes, then.
I woke up. Normal. Shat, showered, shaved. Normal. Had some corn-flakes. Normal. Walked over to my desk. Normal. And then I saw it. The piece of paper. The decidedly un-normal piece of paper. The same piece of paper I am now holding in my hand. There were words on the paper. Large words. Words I hadn't written. And the words said this:
"We just wanted to say thankyou. Your efforts were much appreciated. Oh, and we all agree that chapter seven is your best yet."
I sat, dumb-founded, and read these words. I pinched myself. I read them again. Then I reached for the paper and picked it up, and suddenly these words fell off the page and ran away across the floor. I...I...words fail me. I need a drink.
Right. Let's be rational. There are two possibilities. One, the "intelligence" evinced by the insects (and arachnids) during the recent hostilities has been getting at me, and I'm hallucinating. Lack of sleep. Stress. Two and a half months without having spoken to a single soul. That sort of thing. We know these creatures are intelligent - after all, we've seen enough David Attenborough programmes to know that. But not that intelligent. So. I'm going mad. (I am not going mad.) Two: the ants, the same ants that I've been watching all this time, wrote me a message on a piece of paper, using themselves as words. Simple.
Coincidence?
I need a lie-down.


March 10th

Those awful dreams are back. No spiders this time, just ants, swarming all over me. Also, when I'm awake, I keep getting strange "insect-tickles" on my arms and so on, but when I look, there's never anything there. Horrible.
Re-read chapter seven. I'll say one thing for those ants - they know a good chapter when they read one. Inspired by my own brilliance, I sat down and wrote a whole chapter. Two hundred and ten pages now, not counting Chapter X. At this rate, I'll be slotting that into place any day now.
Decided to ignore the ant message. Write it off as an X-Files hallucination. See what TV can do to you? Burying itself away in your subconscious and then pouncing, just when you least expect it. Anyway, it was a very nice message. Very encouraging.
Midnight. Two hundred and fifty pages and I don't even feel tired - perhaps because I "rested" all day yesterday?
Three-fifteen a.m. Turning in. Two-hundred and fifty-six pages, total.


March 11th

The most disgusting, horrible, nightmarish thing! I feel sick, really sick. I can't believe it, I just can't...
Get a grip. Facts. I was dreaming that ants were swarming down my throat. Hundreds of them. And then...then I woke up, and the little bastards were running for their lives - down my chin, over my chest, onto the bed and away across the floor. When I shut my mouth, they escaped through my nose! Then I felt sick and started to vomit - and I was vomiting up ants! Great clumps of black vomit that just...just...scurried away. As I staggered to my feet, I could still feel them running over me - they were coming out of my ears and everything.
That's it - I've got to buy some poison. Sod the Splendid Isolation-bit - this has gone far enough. I'm leaving now.
Blast. It's Sunday. The shops are shut. It'll have to wait till tomorrow. It felt really weird, being outside. Unnaturally bright and colourful. I have to confess, I felt strangely self-conscious, and even "scurried" along a bit myself. Odd.
Looked all round the flat, armed with boiling water, but to no avail. Not a blighter in sight-er. I'll get the bastards tomorrow, though.


March 12th

The horror. The horror. I don't have much time. Have to write what happened.
I woke up, I'm not sure when, but it was dark. There was a shape, a dark shape in the room. A dark shape that had never been there before. And then, there was a voice - a hideous, mechanical, raspy-sounding voice, like nothing I'd ever heard before. And the voice said:
"Hello. Do not be afraid. There is very little point in being afraid. Just let us explain, and soon it will all be over. Resistance is useless. You might want to turn the light on."
The shock of hearing a voice after so long had completely numbed me to what it was saying. I sat there, confused, trying to focus on the shape. The voice, harder this time, said:
"Turn the light on."
I turned the light on. Then I screamed. Then I passed out.
When I awoke, nothing had changed. The giant ant in the centre of the room spoke again.
"Good. You're awake. We were wondering what to do. Sit back on the bed, please."
I sat back on the bed. I looked at the ant. It was truly terrifying, and I had a sudden realisation of just how brilliant a film The Incredible Shrinking Man really is. "They really got it right", I was thinking, when the ant spoke again.
"You may have some questions. Would you like to ask us some questions?"
Something had been puzzling me. I had assumed that as Giant Ant, the ant was entitled to use the royal "we", but as I looked closer, the truth began to dawn: it wasn't one giant ant at all - it was thousands of ordinary ants, all clustered into one giant ant-shaped entity. Involuntarily, I whistled.
"Wow. Cool."
(A stupid, and entirely inappropriate response, I know, but I'm telling it like it is, and time is of the essence.)
"Questions?"
"Yes. How...how can you speak?"
"We were rather hoping you would ask us that - we have spent the last two months studying your voice-box mechanism, and we have managed to duplicate its functions, using ourselves as component parts."
"Wha-what? You mean while I was asleep?"
"At first, yes. Lately we've had a couple of chaps in there while you've been awake, too. Only you don't say very much, awake or asleep, so it took a while to get the finer points nailed down, obviously."
"But you- you're ants."
"Yes."
"The same ants from the bathroom."
"Yes. A thousand thankyous again, by the way. Without you, our invasion might have been prevented."
"What? Invasion? What do you mean?"
"Yes. You see, I'm afraid the spiders were all that stood between us and the fruition of our master plan. Had it not been for your timely intervention, all might have been lost. A real case of victory snatched from the jaws of defeat. Well done."
"Master plan? What master plan?"
"Pity you'll never get to finish that novel, mind. It was turning out quite nicely, we thought. Does he get the girl at the end?"
"What? I-"
"Never mind. Immaterial now, anyway. That's enough talking now, I think. It's time for the submergence."
"Submergence?"
"One of those words, anyway."
The ant began to move towards me. I sat bolt upright - suddenly terrified.
"No point moving around. Only delay the inevitable. Resistance is useless."
I screamed. I threw a punch into the centre of the ant-entity, but its ant-components just rearranged themselves around my arm. Then the whole weight of them was upon me and I fell to the ground. In seconds, hundreds of ants peeled off from the giant ant and formed wrist and ankle-bands, pinning me tightly to the floor. I screamed again, and the ants chose that moment to "submerge". They poured into my open mouth like a living pint of Guinness. I shut my mouth, but they broke off and went in through my nose and ears. In a few moments every single ant had disappeared completely. Only this time, I knew where they were.
I lay on my back for a few moments, unsure of what to do next. The words "master plan", "submergence" and "invasion" ran through my head. And then, a chilling echo: "Pity you'll never get to finish that novel..." Then, suddenly, the left side of my body began to twitch, violently. I tried to move my arm: it was like trying to move through treacle. I pulled myself up to my desk and sat down to my journal. The whole time I've been writing this, I've been sitting on my left hand.
So that's it. I can feel myself slowly losing control...I can't move my legs anymore...My arm is getting heavier...In a few moments they will have taken over completely. My eyes are...darkening...Help...me...

Finished? Jolly good. Let's go then. See how this baby handles on the outside. Today Croydon, tomorrow the world and all that. Cheerio.

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CROYDON ECHO - APRIL 29TH

MYSTERIOUS DISAPPEARANCE OF
LOCAL RECLUSE

Police in Croydon were mystified today when they broke into a flat to find that the occupant had mysteriously disappeared. They were alerted by a local woman who said that she became alarmed when the occupant failed to retrieve his weekly shopping for the third week in a row. The man, said to be something of a recluse, is understood to have been working on a pair of novels at the time of his disappearance, both apparently unfinished. A police spokesman said "Neither of the novels are any good, and we think his disappearance may be linked to depression." The man is described as being about six foot tall, with brown hair and brown eyes, and in his mid-twenties. If you have any information regarding his whereabouts, the number to call is Croydon 554321.


Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Friday, August 19, 2005

Ten Things About Beards.

Well, to be honest, I’ve forgotten how long I’ve had the beard for now. It must be at least two months though. Here are a few things I’ve learned:

1) Having a beard makes you an instant member of The Secret Community Of Beard-Sporters. We may not mention it to each other when we meet, but by God, we’re thinking it.

2) You find yourself checking out every beard you pass and mentally grading it for style and quality.

3) Beard-stroking becomes a pastime in itself. You can spend literally hours doing it.

4) Moustache-twirling, doubly so.

5) Having a beard makes me about 10 times more photogenic. For one thing it completely hides the pale expanse of double chin. For this reason alone I’m actually considering keeping the thing. I’m also glad there are no grey hairs in it, considering how quickly they’re taking over my actual head.

6) Apart from a brief experiment in 1991 I’ve been beardless for most of my adult life, so having one suddenly starts to look like a radical life-changing decision. People genuinely look at you like they’re seeing you in a different light. Which, technically, of course, they are.

7) They make you feel more manly. Someone on FU said I looked like I was “capable of satisfying whole villages of women”. I wouldn’t go quite that far, obviously, but there’s definitely a sense of uninhibited “manly freedom”.

8) The beard itself has several different parts to it. I have favourite bits. I like the soft patch underneath my chin, I like twirling the weird longer hairs on either side of my neck; I like gently brushing the thicker hairs on my chin with my fingertips; I like reshaping my moustache and brushing the hairs in different directions; and I like the soft downy hairs below my ears. I gave Wol the Guided Tour the other day. I think she enjoyed it.

9) It’s fucking great to not have to shave.

10) And one final note – what’s the name of that condition where you can’t help plucking out your own hair? I think I have a mild tendency towards that – I can’t stop pulling out the hairs around my chin. Occasionally I go too far and have to pluck the other side to even it out. Not sure anyone has noticed though.

Project X-4: Edinburgh Festival Blog.

Mission accomplished (so far, anyway: http://edfilmfest.blogspot.com/

Dammit, how do you links, anyway?

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Project Beer Belly: Update

Well, the stupid Kelloggs thing didn't work. I'm still 15 stone according to the lying bastard scales. I do seem to have lost a little girth though (maybe half an inch) and one of my friends told me I'd lost weight this week, so that was nice. (I told him it was the beard). That said, I'm plainly too big for a pair of trousers that I remember fitting very comfortably less than 4 years ago, so that's not good. Must. Try. Harder. I need to try and cycle every day or something. If only I didn't have so much bastard work to do...

Project Beard: Update

The beard, on the other hand, goes from strength to strength. It's actually starting to look like a real beard now and not like I just can't be bothered to shave. Clearly I am great at accomplishing things which require no effort whatsoever. I wonder how I can apply this gift to the rest of my life? I definitely want the "full" beard - someone suggested trimming it down to a goatee and that sounded way too much work to me. Besides, I never saw my dad without a full beard and if it was good enough for him...

Project Wonder Woman: Update

What? I didn't mention Project Wonder Woman before? Well, I am now. I just finished watching season 1 and have watched the pilot episode of season 2. It's fabulous. I was forbidden from watching all American TV shows as a child (until Knight Rider came along, anyway) and Wonder Woman was the only notable casualty of that, in that it was something I wanted to watch but couldn't. I remain convinced that this contributed to my (relatively) slow sexual development - I'm sure if I'd been allowed to watch Wonder Woman (and Daisy Duke in The Dukes of Hazzard) at a reasonable age it might have speeded up a thing or two. Anyway, from what I've seen so far I think it's definitely worth blogging an episode guide. I think I'll do it after I've seen them all though. In the meantime I'll stick to putting up pictures of 'Wonder Woman In Dodgy Bondage Situations', like this one:

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Testing, testing...

I'm going to try this new picture function Blogger are going on about. Here we go...

Ha ha! Fabulous. This is from my recently-acquired Wonder Woman season 1 DVD. For some reason she manages to get tied up, chained or crushed by a giant gorilla at least once per episode. So far, anyway.

Project X-3: Grow A Beard

This may well be ill-advised. Only time will tell. I haven't shaved for about a week now and things are feeling decidedly beard-like. However, whenever I look in the mirror it still just looks unkempt and straggly rather than like an actual beard. I think I'll give it another week or so and if it still looks crap I'll shave it off. I haven't grown one since 1991 so this could be interesting...

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Project Beer-Belly: Day 11

Hmmm. The results so far can only be described as "mixed". On the plus side: tape-measure reveals belly is now a mere 40.5 inches. On the minus side: I finally bought the cheap scales from Argos and they say my weight is up to 15 stone. So I've actually put on half a stone! Stupid 'Drop A Jeans Size' diet. At this rate I'm going to have to start actually exercising or something.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Project Beer Belly: Day Three

I'm three days into the 'Drop a Jeans Size' thing now and have just finished my first box of Crunchy Nut Corn Flakes. I'm switching to Just Right until my Just Right runs out. The Suits don't seem to like this over at the Kellogg's website, but how much harm could it really do? So far it's been surprisingly easy to exist on one meal and two bowls of cereal a day. I can see it getting old fast though. No visible belly reduction yet, though I did manage to force myself into a lower belt hole earlier, so that's something. I'm not weighing myself again until next Wednesday.